The utter destruction

just seems to be shifting from one part of the world to the other. My heart and prayers go out to those in Japan. Don't know if my friends there are all right yet. As I said on FB if there were ever a time for Kuan Yin's one thousand healing arms, now is it.

I haven't seen the charity auctions spring up yet though I've seen mention of them already. I have seen some other offers.

D. Gray-man offer She's a button maker

artemisrae has up an offer

I'm thinking of doing something much like the button maker but i need to see if my ebay name is even valid any more. I do have things I can auction and donate the proceeds. I'll let you know.

ETA - ALso, I hope everyone in CA and OR are okay. We're just getting the damage reports from there

It's spring break

I should be happy. Between hormones and high blood sugar (and this is the result OF the hormones), my mind feels like it's coming apart and i can't hold on to the pieces.

My sugar makes me mean. Got into a fight with mom who seems to not really understand that I'm drowning in debt at this point. She can't just keep giving me money. The only other things i have to give up are my internet and tv. I'm not sure what I'd do all night without at least one of them. Im not sure what quitting my job and moving home would do. She seems to think I'm capable of living back home with them and working retail or something.

I think mostly she just wants me to come home since I'm a refuge from her mother and my dad. But hell their governor is even more fucking nuts than OH and WI. He wants to strike higher education down by over 50% to save money. Really? WHen did professors start making CEO pay scale? How are we such a threat? Well if we were all dumb it would make it easier to control us. AND as if that isn't bad enough, he refuses to tax the new gas drilling companies which is becomign a boom business in PA. Guess we know whose pocket he's in.

This hurts. I keep dreaming of going back to the two states I really like PA and WI. Most of my friends and family are back in PA. I would like to return. It's not easy when you're a professor, having to wait for a job to come open.

And my student loan idiots are fucking up again too. Last week they sent me paperwork saying they were processing my forebearance. WHAT? You fucktards that was paperwork for my repayment. then they sent me paperwork stating I owe nothing right now. today I got paperwork saying my forebearance was denied. IT WASN'T FOREBEARANCE PAPERWORK!!. I don't even know what to do at this point. They're making me insane.



I might be putting the cats in the kennel. Mom wants to pay for it since I'm going to be gone for a few days this time and not weeks. I'll call tomorrow to see if they'll take them on short notice.

I typed so much my thumb is acting up. Damn you big bang.

I will be doing something for help_japan once it opens up. I'm also thinking of doing it as jana_denardo so people might get the chance to get a short story or invent a character in my novel or something like that. i'll see.

( Day 147, this looks like i feel )