cornerofmadness

It's been raining for days but today was HARD. The basement is taking in water again. Sigh. There's some pretty massive flooding around here.

Yesterday mom and I hit the mall again. Bought shorts without trying them on. Mistake, they need to go back. Oh well, another mall trip :-) We did try a new to us restaurant Cadillac Ranch. Good spicy shrimp wrap and for being new customers, they gave us a cookie and free appetizers next visit. They have an ahi tuna one. OOOOO.

We finished up staging Grandma's house. This is so hard, so much more than I expected. It's been in the family 101 years now.

Today was rough, trying to figure out the Max line so I can get around Portland. When I get frustrated I get snappy and whiney. I don't mean to. Mom wasn't helping. I was trying to look up one thing and she another, ie when I have to leave the hotel to get to where I need to be and she wasn't finding it and kept looking up something I already knew. Okay the first time, the third and fourth time I was getting upset.

So here comes Dad with 'want a little cheese?' (with that whine). I know he was joking but coming from someone who has spent the last week making a half dozen excel spreadsheets for HIS trip and losing his temper an equal number of times, it didn't go down well.

I know I'm too easily hurt. I also don't really feel free to talk about my depression with the parents because a) I don't want to worry them b) everything I do is wrong any how and c) I'm always 'attention seeking' with my health and I'm a hypochondriac.

I have no enthusiasm for this trip even though I know I'm going to see some really fun things