Guilt is a strange thing

I decided to post twice tonight since they don't go together but this is that guilt I was talking about last week and have finally been able to elucidate. (from twitter)

Guilt is a horrible thing and it is eating at me. Many retired doctors are being called back. I want to go with them. No one, however, can tell me about malpractice. I wish I could trust the hospitals to have our backs. I do not (given how malpractice goes).

I no longer have malpractice insurance (because it costs more than I currently make in a year). That hasn't stopped me from making calls but they don't have answers for me. I am a doctor. I have never wanted to stop helping patients. That was taking away by an injury.



I can't do surgery but I could help. On the other side of this, my family doesn't want me to for good reasons. My health isn't good. I'm a diabetic with asthma and scarred lungs with autoimmune issues. I would most likely contract it in that setting. I know this. I want to go.




But I know I won't be allowed to. And the guilt of not helping weighs heavy even knowing I'm best not in the middle of it. This is hard.

The State of My Writing

It's doing well. I've sent in the novella (yay!) and I finished my gen freeform story (even bigger yay). I'm seriously going to do dick_or_treat

ETA - If there is a pairing you'd like to prompt me for for D or T, that'd be great (If you're not sure if I write a pairing, ask).

I did make another fan sound track because why not?



On YouTube here. and Spotify here.


Spent some time working on mix tapes for Gil and Jackie

And now I'm working up some anxiety for extra added fun.

ETA - Have a little nano bit (for dick or treat) Connor studied the snow flocked trees, silvery under the light of the full moon. The stillness of it, the quiet so deep, he felt lost in the beauty.

9712 words in total for nano. I'm trying to up my goal but nano is being a dick. I hate this new web page.

March's reads

I love talking books so if you see anything you might want to chat about, let's do it.

Book: A Madness So Discreet historical mystery Read for ljbookbingo for the prompt A novel that has won an award

The Castle of Otranto classical, fantasy Read for ljbookbingo for the prompt A book that has less than 200 pages

The Spectral City paranormal read for ljbookbingo for the prompt Read a paranormal or supernatural novel

Vinland Saga, Volume 9: Fighting for a Future manga, historical read for ljbookbingo for the prompt read a comic book or graphic novel

Bright Young Dead historical mystery read for ljbookbingo for the prompt A book by a new to you author

Prose and Cons cozy mystery read for ljbookbingo for the prompt A book with an animal on the cover

Drifting Dragons #1 manga, fantasy