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cornerofmadnessI barely got out of the apartment. Some of my students were surrounded and didn't make it. If I get a chance tomorrow I will take pictures of a spontaneous lake. I did lose power briefly last night but it never froze. Don't worry, another storm is heading this way.
Today was a big biology meeting where we got nothing accomplished in 1 1/2 hours. sigh. I went outside and my radio is off. WTF. I never turn it off. I see a message that my security system was off. I only seen this message when my battery is dead. I'm like did I have enough charge to get the thing started and now I'm running off my alternator? I get the radio back no sound...argh
and I don't want to go to Jackson (20 miles from work but the closest auto zone) because my blood sugar is fucked up. went to 320 when I ate my salad but when I ate 4 slices of pizza at the meeting my sugar went from 180 to 80 and I was getting dizzy. But off I go because I don't want to wake up to a dead battery. They check it and no problems. the battery is fine. They suggest it's a glitch and to call Honda if it continues. I get in. No sound and then i bump the steering wheel and the volume goes to 2. OMG it had turned the sound to zero whatever this is. The flashdrive music has reset to song one, again like it does if the battery is out. WTF
Talked to dad and he said his CRV has done this. it's a known glitch. ugh.
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halfamoon again. I did do another story for this.
Title: Somebody To Lean On
Day/Prompt: Day 6 / weaknesses & flaws
Fandom: Hazbin Hotel
Character/Pairing: Charlie Morningstar/Vaggie
Summary: Charlie’s self doubts are winning. Luckily she has Vaggie to lean on.
Charlie wished she knew what she was doing wrong. Her resolve had been shaken with the realization that the Seraphim had no idea what redemption meant to a soul in hell or even how any soul made it into heaven in the first place. How could the Heavenly Host not know? This might have been what her father was trying to warn her of. Redemption had to be possible or what else was the point of any of it? She could see that Angel and Pentious had made such improvements and yet they were still mired here in hell.
Sighing, she wrapped herself up like a burrito in her bedding. Unlike earlier when Alastor popped in to enjoy her pain while she hid in bed, Vaggie joined her on the mattress without any of the mirth or recriminations he had brought. Vaggie tucked herself around Charlie, stroking her hair.
“It’ll be okay, babe,” Vaggie said.
Charlie no longer believed that fully and it hurt. How could she lose faith? In a moment of weakness, she had made a deal with Alastor. It wasn’t for her soul but it was going to be unpleasant. She didn’t need Vaggie to point it out. Uncle Satan forbid her father found out. Lucifer would lose his mind and she barely had him on her side as it was.
“Will it? I’m sure Dad will say there’s a flaw in my plan from the start and Alastor is helping for his own amusement, not because he wants me to succeed.” She sighed.
“Maybe the plan is flawed. You’re dealing with sinners, Charlie. They are deeply flawed. That’s why they’re in hell in the first place,” Vaggie replied gently.
“I know.” She rolled onto her back and Vaggie wiggled around to accommodate her. “But you saw Angel and Husk, Vaggie. They protected Niffty. Angel didn’t answer Valentino’s violence with more violence.”
“That’s probably because he knows how much Valentino will make him suffer, Charlie. Heaven might not see that as him redeeming himself,” Vaggie countered.
“It should count.” Charlie ground her knuckles against her watering eyes. “Maybe the flaw isn’t in my plan. Maybe it’s in me.”
Vaggie cupped her face. “Don’t say that, Charlie. You’re not flawed.”
Charlie smiled softly. “I am. I mean, we all are, right? Dad would argue my blind faith in people is a flaw.”
“It could be a weakness,” Vaggie said cautiously. “But you’re not afraid to put your heart out there even knowing someone will punch you right in it, especially here in hell. It’s what I love about you. It’s what made me believe in you. You’re so optimistic and kind and if those traits are considered a weakness in hell, I don’t care. That’s what drew me you. What made me love you.”
Charlie teared up and kissed her girlfriend. “Thank you. You are so perfect sometimes.”
Vaggie snorted. “I’m really not.”
“Oh, I know. You have a temper too, like that time when you and Angel would have torn Pentious apart.” Charlie brushed Vaggie’s hair back. “But that also makes you protective. That’s one of the things I love best about you is your protectiveness.”
A strange expression flashed across Vaggie’s face and she everted her gaze. “You’re worth protecting.”
“So are our guests. I know you see that too, Vaggie. It’s just another way you’re so special.”
“Me?” Vaggie turned back to her, an amused look on her face. “Babe, I'm pretty sure you have stardust running through those veins.” She drew Charlie in for a soft kiss.
“That is a beautiful way of putting it. Hmm, maybe it’s not as simple as weakness and flaws. Context matters,” Charlie mused. “I have an idea, Vaggie.”
At that, Vaggie’s expression brightened, “Oh?”
“It’s a new session for them, nothing fancy. No trust falls, no team building or games. We make some tea and coffee, maybe some snacks and set out some candles and tissue boxes to make it comfortable and to be prepared if someone cries.”
Vaggie stifled a laugh. “I know Angel and Pentious are criers but I’m trying to picture Husk or Alastor as shedding a tear.”
“I’m sure they might. Once we’ve set the stage, we can talk about our flaws, maybe poke at how those flaws might have ended them here in hell. Once we recognize our weaknesses, we can fix them and work toward redemption. I’d go first and talk about how I love and trust far too easily. Of course, that’s just to get us started. The hell born aren’t going anywhere.”
Vaggie mulled it over before asking, “Do you really think they’d talk about it?”
Charlie nodded. “I think with the right encouragement they might. We know so very little about any of them because they don’t want to share but if we make them feel safe and cared for, they might open up. I can certainly tell Angel how proud I am of his progress and about that time he protected me and forgave me when I made things worse with Valentino, about how that made me feel. If he thinks someone believes in him, it’ll help.”
“I hope you’re right.”
“He could even invite his friend, Cherri if he wants.” Charlie started talking faster, convincing herself of her plan. “I’m sure Pentious would open up. He’s the least guarded of the bunch. Husk has to have a reason he started drinking so heavily. If we can pinpoint that flaw, maybe we can help him too.”
“Charlie, Husk’s the help, not one of our clients. He’s never once said he wanted to redeem himself and Angel….”
Vaggie didn’t finish her thought. They both knew Angel only came to the hotel to get away from Valentino for a few hours a day and so he could save his money for more drugs but he’d changed. Charlie just knew being here meant more to him now than free room and board.
“I think Husk does want redeemed too. I think he wants to go with Angel,” Charlie protested and Vaggie blinked hard.
“Say what?”
“Haven’t you noticed? Watch Husk sometime. When he looks at Angel, everything about him becomes less prickly. His eyes soften. He’s drinking less the more they talk at the end of a long night. I think someone’s falling in love.” Charlie clasped her hands.
Vaggie pressed a kiss to her cheek. “You might be wearing rose colored glasses on that one, babe.”
“I’m not.” Charlie wrinkled her nose. “Valentino wears rose-colored glasses and his view isn’t any rosier.”
“Because he’s a psychopath. I mean, your father’s not wrong, at least not entirely about his kingdom. Some of the people down here aren’t going to be redeemable nor would they want it. I don’t think Alastor would want heaven. I think he’d be bored.”
Charlie hated the thought of that. “I hate that you’re probably right but trust me on Husk. Just watch him sometime. And Niffty might be redeemable.”
“We don’t even know what she did to earn a trip here. We don’t know what any of them did,” Vaggie replied.
“I know but I have to believe some of them can turn things around. I think we have to try this.”
Vaggie took her hand and gave it a squeeze. “All right, we will. I’ll go second if you want me to. I can talk about my temper or the fact that I don’t trust easily. It’s a start.”
“Thank you, Vaggie. For everything you do to make my vision come to life.”
Vaggie did so much for her. Charlie couldn’t begin to list everything but her unwavering support was what she loved best. It was exactly what Charlie needed.
“You’re welcome and Charlie, don’t be too disappointed if it doesn’t work the first time out. In fact, maybe start in small groups, just Angel and Pentious or add in Husk too. They might feel less guarded that way. Or make it Husk and Niffty since they already know each other well.”
“That’s a great idea, thanks again, Vaggie.”
Charlie threw her arms around her lover, wrapping up in her. They would get a soul redeemed. She couldn’t allow herself doubt it. And once one of them got to heaven, then who knew? It would be the most amazing adventure. She just had to protect them until it happened and with Vaggie at her side, Charlie didn’t doubt that either.
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Today was a big biology meeting where we got nothing accomplished in 1 1/2 hours. sigh. I went outside and my radio is off. WTF. I never turn it off. I see a message that my security system was off. I only seen this message when my battery is dead. I'm like did I have enough charge to get the thing started and now I'm running off my alternator? I get the radio back no sound...argh
and I don't want to go to Jackson (20 miles from work but the closest auto zone) because my blood sugar is fucked up. went to 320 when I ate my salad but when I ate 4 slices of pizza at the meeting my sugar went from 180 to 80 and I was getting dizzy. But off I go because I don't want to wake up to a dead battery. They check it and no problems. the battery is fine. They suggest it's a glitch and to call Honda if it continues. I get in. No sound and then i bump the steering wheel and the volume goes to 2. OMG it had turned the sound to zero whatever this is. The flashdrive music has reset to song one, again like it does if the battery is out. WTF
Talked to dad and he said his CRV has done this. it's a known glitch. ugh.
I have no new communities for you but pointing you at
halfamoon again. I did do another story for this.Title: Somebody To Lean On
Day/Prompt: Day 6 / weaknesses & flaws
Fandom: Hazbin Hotel
Character/Pairing: Charlie Morningstar/Vaggie
Summary: Charlie’s self doubts are winning. Luckily she has Vaggie to lean on.
Charlie wished she knew what she was doing wrong. Her resolve had been shaken with the realization that the Seraphim had no idea what redemption meant to a soul in hell or even how any soul made it into heaven in the first place. How could the Heavenly Host not know? This might have been what her father was trying to warn her of. Redemption had to be possible or what else was the point of any of it? She could see that Angel and Pentious had made such improvements and yet they were still mired here in hell.
Sighing, she wrapped herself up like a burrito in her bedding. Unlike earlier when Alastor popped in to enjoy her pain while she hid in bed, Vaggie joined her on the mattress without any of the mirth or recriminations he had brought. Vaggie tucked herself around Charlie, stroking her hair.
“It’ll be okay, babe,” Vaggie said.
Charlie no longer believed that fully and it hurt. How could she lose faith? In a moment of weakness, she had made a deal with Alastor. It wasn’t for her soul but it was going to be unpleasant. She didn’t need Vaggie to point it out. Uncle Satan forbid her father found out. Lucifer would lose his mind and she barely had him on her side as it was.
“Will it? I’m sure Dad will say there’s a flaw in my plan from the start and Alastor is helping for his own amusement, not because he wants me to succeed.” She sighed.
“Maybe the plan is flawed. You’re dealing with sinners, Charlie. They are deeply flawed. That’s why they’re in hell in the first place,” Vaggie replied gently.
“I know.” She rolled onto her back and Vaggie wiggled around to accommodate her. “But you saw Angel and Husk, Vaggie. They protected Niffty. Angel didn’t answer Valentino’s violence with more violence.”
“That’s probably because he knows how much Valentino will make him suffer, Charlie. Heaven might not see that as him redeeming himself,” Vaggie countered.
“It should count.” Charlie ground her knuckles against her watering eyes. “Maybe the flaw isn’t in my plan. Maybe it’s in me.”
Vaggie cupped her face. “Don’t say that, Charlie. You’re not flawed.”
Charlie smiled softly. “I am. I mean, we all are, right? Dad would argue my blind faith in people is a flaw.”
“It could be a weakness,” Vaggie said cautiously. “But you’re not afraid to put your heart out there even knowing someone will punch you right in it, especially here in hell. It’s what I love about you. It’s what made me believe in you. You’re so optimistic and kind and if those traits are considered a weakness in hell, I don’t care. That’s what drew me you. What made me love you.”
Charlie teared up and kissed her girlfriend. “Thank you. You are so perfect sometimes.”
Vaggie snorted. “I’m really not.”
“Oh, I know. You have a temper too, like that time when you and Angel would have torn Pentious apart.” Charlie brushed Vaggie’s hair back. “But that also makes you protective. That’s one of the things I love best about you is your protectiveness.”
A strange expression flashed across Vaggie’s face and she everted her gaze. “You’re worth protecting.”
“So are our guests. I know you see that too, Vaggie. It’s just another way you’re so special.”
“Me?” Vaggie turned back to her, an amused look on her face. “Babe, I'm pretty sure you have stardust running through those veins.” She drew Charlie in for a soft kiss.
“That is a beautiful way of putting it. Hmm, maybe it’s not as simple as weakness and flaws. Context matters,” Charlie mused. “I have an idea, Vaggie.”
At that, Vaggie’s expression brightened, “Oh?”
“It’s a new session for them, nothing fancy. No trust falls, no team building or games. We make some tea and coffee, maybe some snacks and set out some candles and tissue boxes to make it comfortable and to be prepared if someone cries.”
Vaggie stifled a laugh. “I know Angel and Pentious are criers but I’m trying to picture Husk or Alastor as shedding a tear.”
“I’m sure they might. Once we’ve set the stage, we can talk about our flaws, maybe poke at how those flaws might have ended them here in hell. Once we recognize our weaknesses, we can fix them and work toward redemption. I’d go first and talk about how I love and trust far too easily. Of course, that’s just to get us started. The hell born aren’t going anywhere.”
Vaggie mulled it over before asking, “Do you really think they’d talk about it?”
Charlie nodded. “I think with the right encouragement they might. We know so very little about any of them because they don’t want to share but if we make them feel safe and cared for, they might open up. I can certainly tell Angel how proud I am of his progress and about that time he protected me and forgave me when I made things worse with Valentino, about how that made me feel. If he thinks someone believes in him, it’ll help.”
“I hope you’re right.”
“He could even invite his friend, Cherri if he wants.” Charlie started talking faster, convincing herself of her plan. “I’m sure Pentious would open up. He’s the least guarded of the bunch. Husk has to have a reason he started drinking so heavily. If we can pinpoint that flaw, maybe we can help him too.”
“Charlie, Husk’s the help, not one of our clients. He’s never once said he wanted to redeem himself and Angel….”
Vaggie didn’t finish her thought. They both knew Angel only came to the hotel to get away from Valentino for a few hours a day and so he could save his money for more drugs but he’d changed. Charlie just knew being here meant more to him now than free room and board.
“I think Husk does want redeemed too. I think he wants to go with Angel,” Charlie protested and Vaggie blinked hard.
“Say what?”
“Haven’t you noticed? Watch Husk sometime. When he looks at Angel, everything about him becomes less prickly. His eyes soften. He’s drinking less the more they talk at the end of a long night. I think someone’s falling in love.” Charlie clasped her hands.
Vaggie pressed a kiss to her cheek. “You might be wearing rose colored glasses on that one, babe.”
“I’m not.” Charlie wrinkled her nose. “Valentino wears rose-colored glasses and his view isn’t any rosier.”
“Because he’s a psychopath. I mean, your father’s not wrong, at least not entirely about his kingdom. Some of the people down here aren’t going to be redeemable nor would they want it. I don’t think Alastor would want heaven. I think he’d be bored.”
Charlie hated the thought of that. “I hate that you’re probably right but trust me on Husk. Just watch him sometime. And Niffty might be redeemable.”
“We don’t even know what she did to earn a trip here. We don’t know what any of them did,” Vaggie replied.
“I know but I have to believe some of them can turn things around. I think we have to try this.”
Vaggie took her hand and gave it a squeeze. “All right, we will. I’ll go second if you want me to. I can talk about my temper or the fact that I don’t trust easily. It’s a start.”
“Thank you, Vaggie. For everything you do to make my vision come to life.”
Vaggie did so much for her. Charlie couldn’t begin to list everything but her unwavering support was what she loved best. It was exactly what Charlie needed.
“You’re welcome and Charlie, don’t be too disappointed if it doesn’t work the first time out. In fact, maybe start in small groups, just Angel and Pentious or add in Husk too. They might feel less guarded that way. Or make it Husk and Niffty since they already know each other well.”
“That’s a great idea, thanks again, Vaggie.”
Charlie threw her arms around her lover, wrapping up in her. They would get a soul redeemed. She couldn’t allow herself doubt it. And once one of them got to heaven, then who knew? It would be the most amazing adventure. She just had to protect them until it happened and with Vaggie at her side, Charlie didn’t doubt that either.
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