Relief

[cornerofmadness]

I've been keeping a secret, a worry that i wasn't ready to put out there. Polycystic ovarian disease, in addition to making you unable to lose weight (check), gives you diabetes (check) can also kick you into early menopause. I haven't had a period in two months. I was about to call the ob/gyn for an emergency appt. I've had perimenopausal symptoms for years and I've never had a normal period. I dont' usually skip a month. I'm more of the two in one month type of gal. So this had me worried.

I knew I wasn't pregnant. Hell I can't even remember the last time I had a date so if I was pregnant, expect the world to end. But I'm not ready for menopause. I have enough health issues. I wasn't so much worried about not having kids. I've been thinking about adoption anyhow. There's more to being a parent than genetics. BUt I was worried about all the other things that go with menopause and there are ways of fending it off if it comes early. AND it can be a sign of something else being wrong with you.

So, I've never been so happy to see my stupid period. But you would know it waited until the first day of class just to be totally inconvienent. Go me.

Oddly enough the main character on The Closer is dealing with these issues so it made it easy to explain to Dad what was up with me. Point. Watch. Learn. he has asked me in the past why, since my ovaries are the reason I can't lose weight and am most likely diabetic, haven't I just had them removed since I don't really want to have kids. Well he found and sent me this article today. newsarticle at yahoo My question has to be, why are men not at higher risk (appreciably) for dementia and parkinsons since they hardly have any estrogen in them but a woman without her ovaries is very high risk. Curious bit of physiology there.

and apropos of nothing the Stouffer's bistro flat bread pizza was delicious. evil_little_dog will tell you how much I don't like frozen pizza but this was good, small but good. I had the shrimp and roasted garlic (with an alfredo sauce base), plenty of delicious buttery garlic. Ah....

Comments

[chaos-by-design.livejournal.com]

Yipes. Dementia is one of my worst fears.

I didn't know you were thinking of having kids.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thinking more of adopting one but not until I'm more settled. Then again I'm thinking of dating again too

and yes dementia is something I'd like to avoid

[chaos-by-design.livejournal.com]

that's what I mean. I think of adopting as having a kid.

I know I couldn't handle having kids. Cats are enough for me.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

well i've always thought that but recently seeing the mental pain some older relatives are having now (and with some of my older patients) they regret not haivng kids and the fact that I enjoy spending time with my friends kids and the ones here at the complex, which is new to me since aI was never a kid person< i've been giving it some thought

[chaos-by-design.livejournal.com]

hm, interesting. when i was younger i was more ambivalent about it but as i've gotten older i've gotten less tolerant of kids and more certain of my lack of desire to have them.

i also just don't think i'm cut out for motherhood.

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

I decided not to have kids at 33, and regretted it vaguely at 38, but not enough to do anything about that. I'm so not a kid person. OTOH? Aunt=good.

[chaos-by-design.livejournal.com]

I think there's also the issue of having to decide if you *really* want kids, or if it's just hormones fucking with your brain. I've had second thoughts, and then realized that it was most likely hormones having their way with me, and I felt much better.

Maybe it's easier for me to do that because I'm more of a head person than a heart person.

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

Oh, it was definitely hormones. I found the whole thing fascinating, really, observing myself from the outside and how I reacted to my nephew/neice and other stuff, like Connor+Angel, etc.

[chaos-by-design.livejournal.com]

wow. you're almost more of a head person than i am. *checks you for pointy ears*

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i can understand that

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

believe me I've had that thought too especially since I'm a head person too.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I've had THAT thought too.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yeah I have my doubts about that too. It hasn't been until the last 5 years that I've ever given it any thought