Upon my last day of being 40
Jun. 16th, 2008 05:12 pmOddly it didn't even occur to me until late this afternoon that this was my last day to be 40. I wasn't very much bothered by the fact that I'll be 'in my forties' not like I was last year. Turning 40 bothered me a lot, bothered me more when my birthday was so summarily forgotten by everyone, including my mother. It was a blow especially after all the talking I did about it and you know that BIG trip to Vegas.
This year is different. My birthday will be quiet. If I wasn't driving back to Pittsburgh next week I might have driven up to Columbus. Heck I might even be doing the laundry tomorrow, I don't know. Maybe I'll go see the Indy movie. I bought king crab legs and tiramisu for my birthday.
I'm going nowhere this year, not that I often do. I rarely have the moneyor time for a vacation. YEs, I'm off for weeks and I guess that's vacation enough but mostly I'm just doing the same dumb things as I do every day.
I'll leave off cleaning the house tomorrow. I made lots of head way today. That can be my birthday gift to myself. Maybe I'll join that travel group as my birthday gift. Maybe I'll pull out the pictures from my photo albums and scan them in and look at myself over the last few years(or at least the 21st century)
Maybe quiet acceptance is what being in your 40's is all about. That and finding your own paths to joy. Like today, I quit doing everything for two hours and just went outside and sat with my house plants and wind chimes. It was such a beautiful day, windy, occasionally rainy and delightfully cool. I only have two horrid nearly un-sit-uponable plastic chairs that even Roy avoids so like a true redneck, I dragged out my task chair and an ottoman and just sat there and read, feeling the breeze on my face, listening to the Fullmetal Alchemist soundtrack and the wind chimes. It was nice. Roy sat out there too. He was thinking what I was, need more wind chimes.
Just because I'm old, doesn't mean I can't annoy the neighbors.
This year is different. My birthday will be quiet. If I wasn't driving back to Pittsburgh next week I might have driven up to Columbus. Heck I might even be doing the laundry tomorrow, I don't know. Maybe I'll go see the Indy movie. I bought king crab legs and tiramisu for my birthday.
I'm going nowhere this year, not that I often do. I rarely have the moneyor time for a vacation. YEs, I'm off for weeks and I guess that's vacation enough but mostly I'm just doing the same dumb things as I do every day.
I'll leave off cleaning the house tomorrow. I made lots of head way today. That can be my birthday gift to myself. Maybe I'll join that travel group as my birthday gift. Maybe I'll pull out the pictures from my photo albums and scan them in and look at myself over the last few years(or at least the 21st century)
Maybe quiet acceptance is what being in your 40's is all about. That and finding your own paths to joy. Like today, I quit doing everything for two hours and just went outside and sat with my house plants and wind chimes. It was such a beautiful day, windy, occasionally rainy and delightfully cool. I only have two horrid nearly un-sit-uponable plastic chairs that even Roy avoids so like a true redneck, I dragged out my task chair and an ottoman and just sat there and read, feeling the breeze on my face, listening to the Fullmetal Alchemist soundtrack and the wind chimes. It was nice. Roy sat out there too. He was thinking what I was, need more wind chimes.
Just because I'm old, doesn't mean I can't annoy the neighbors.

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Date: 2008-06-16 09:48 pm (UTC)Anything you want that I can feasibly give you? Icons, graphics, bunnies?
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Date: 2008-06-17 10:20 pm (UTC)Oh, and, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Also, look at my post to see how geeky I really am when it comes to my ATCs. I bet no one has done any microbiology ATCs but me! :D
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Date: 2008-06-16 09:55 pm (UTC)I'm 47 and don't consider myself oooold....well okay occasionally I do. But that's only after running across a fully bearded man in the store and suddenly realizing he was one of the CUB SCOUTS I taught First Aid to! MEEEEP! AND he was with his SON, who was married with a kid on the way!
OMFG!!!!! *giggle*
Yeah well if it's any consolation...I spend my birthdays by myself. Eh....take it back, THIS year I spent it by myself. Wasn't so horrible.
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Date: 2008-06-16 10:20 pm (UTC)Happy Birthday!
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Date: 2008-06-17 01:56 am (UTC)I do agree that one of the best things about getting older is we're more accepting of ourselves and less likely to give a hoot about what others think. Have a wonderful day tomorrow.
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Date: 2008-06-17 02:22 am (UTC)and yes it is a nice thing isn't it
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Date: 2008-06-17 03:09 am (UTC)Oh yah, that forgotten on your 40th even after reminding people? must be going around. I finally had to arrange my own birthday party by announcing very bluntly when it was crystal clear that the party I'd been promised had been forgotten, that I did not CARE if anyone else was going to be there, that *I* was going to Akashi to eat sushi and anyone who wanted to be there was welcome. I ended up with about 15 people there with me. It was cool. So what if I had to be act petulant. hahaha... It got me my way didn't it? And I was entitled
Anyway, happy birthday. Go eat Sushi.
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Date: 2008-06-17 03:18 am (UTC)I suppose whether or not i feel old has to do with the day. Sometimes i feel very young, others I feel quite old.
I thought you were older than me but I didn't know by how much
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Date: 2008-06-17 04:05 am (UTC)I never do
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Date: 2008-06-17 06:17 am (UTC)HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
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Date: 2008-06-18 04:26 pm (UTC)but yeah mostly i don't feel too old
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Date: 2008-06-19 12:34 am (UTC)Good! *g*
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Date: 2008-06-19 01:25 am (UTC)at least none that will fit in a honda civic
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Date: 2008-06-22 05:17 am (UTC)I haven't adjusted well to being in my 40s...I don't feel that old, dammit. :-)
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Date: 2008-06-22 05:21 am (UTC)and no, neither do I.
my parents aren't thrilled about it either since they don't feel old enough to have a 40 year old baby