since i didn't get to do this last night

[cornerofmadness]

Things are rolling right along

18,167 / 50,000 (36.3%)

I posted up more of it to those on my original fiction filter. I'd love to know what you think of it.

and snagged this from chelle86 This is frighteningly accurate.

take it yourself


Name:
Date: 11/12/2008
Colorgenics Number: 37125046
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You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.
You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are. You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offence, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up up emotion and thus avoid open conflict.

You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

Comments

[mulzrule.livejournal.com]

Wow, the progress rate shot waaaay up. Go you. I don't think I'm on it anymore cuz I got a couple of entries that said "error". Mah.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

error? let me go check.

[sita-137.livejournal.com]

Hm, I didn't like mine at all.

Which leads to the question: Does that mean it was accurate? [chuckle]

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I didn't particularly LIKE mine either but it is accurate

[sita-137.livejournal.com]

[laugh] I didn't think yours was bad!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

it was a little depressing. the part about not taking criticism well bothered me because it IS true and i've been hyperaware of that lately and I'm trying to fix it but it's hard

[sita-137.livejournal.com]

Okay, here's mine:

Name: Rachel
Date: 11/12/2008
Colorgenics Number: 61034275

Enough is enough - and you feel that you've had enough for a while. You don't need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.

You are experiencing considerable difficulty trying to achieve your goals. As a consequence of this you are becoming more and more irritable. Your friends and acquaintances are finding it increasingly more difficult to appease or to reason with you. You are the cause of your own problems. Don't be so impulsive. It is your vacillation that can lead to problems and uncertainties. Ease up a little.

At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You are carried away by other people's enthusiasm and looking for that idealised relationship, be it in a business or personal situation, which you are able to share with a mutual depth of understanding. You have lowered your defences in the past and you have been hurt, so you are now extremely wary of being exploited. You are still ready to trust people on the condition that they are prepared to offer you proof of their sincerity.

You wish to safeguard yourself against criticism or conflict and to embed yourself in a protected situation. You are a difficult person to relate to and very difficult to please.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

that first paragraph seems to be a bit accurate and maybe a little of the last. the middle not so much so

[married-n-mich.livejournal.com]

Dang! Look at you go!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

FINALLY