These Dreams and contemplation

[cornerofmadness]

I was having a doozy of a dream this morning. I was in a big city skyrise with the Dr M from the WV trip and we were LARPing some kind of monster shoot 'em up. It should have been funny but it turned out that it wasn't role play. THey were real. It ended with me being separated from the bunch and I kept going through one secret door after another but they were endless and empty men's rooms with nothing but urinals. (okay that last bit was one of my wake up and go pee dreams before you pee the bed) I woke up and the bedding was everywhere. I was sideways on the bed, muscles rigid and sore. The room stank like sweat. WTF brain? I did not need that.

Speaking of not needing it...something went down the wrong pipe today and I coughed so hard something went pop between my shoulders. Both hands went instantly numb. Pain radiated to my head and hours later I still can't lift anything with my left hand. Can we say nerve impingement. Yes I thought so. Bummmer since I need my left hand since the right is always weak and numb.

And to the contemplation. I've started chakra meditation. It's interesting. I'm just beginning of course. Was looking back in my lj for photos of Rhinelander (apparently I didn't put them where I thought i did) and I must say this self help stuff IS helping. It's not fast but compared to then I'm so much better. I can see why my psychiatrist wanted me to go away for a little rest. Yes I was dealing with a lot of really hard stuff then. THere were honest reasons to be depressed.

I have to say that marenfic had a lot to do with really getting me started with some book suggestions and chat sessions (she's not been on a lot lately. TOo bad. I miss her). THe rest I'm doing on my own with lots of book suggestions and support from all of you so thanks.

So let me put up the stuff that spoke to me this weekend.

It was from a section on worrying. Naturally some worry is good for us, necessary even. It was more about not dwelling and overworrying (which for me is a big problem)

Did you know that 39% of the things you worry about never happen, 32 percent have already happened, 21 percent are trivial and only 9% relate to issues with legitimate cause for concern? Concentrate on that 9% and put the other 91% behind you I guess then the problem is figuring out which is the right nine. Tea Bliss - Theresa Cheung


on the art of keep trying I have succeeded in proving that those seven hundred ways will not work. WHen I have eliminated all the ways that willnot work, I will find the way that will work Thomas Edison to a reporter in regards to failing 700 times to make the electric light.

I'm keeping trying so thanks to myoriginal fiction filter for the help with Machiavelli Moon and a BIG hug and thanks to wildrider who was only gonna read it (since we seem to be writing vampires who could probably hang out together comfortably) and has just sent me edits. whee.

Kyo has suddenly learned he can balance on the back of my task chair. ANy bets before I have claw marks down my back and a panicked dingdong nestled in the small of my back chewing his way to freedom?














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Comments

[mulzrule.livejournal.com]

Interesting Cheung philosophy. I guess Wii Fit's yoga doesn't count as meditation. Especially when it's so funny you can't stop laughing. >_

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

no b ut it's good for you. I've thought about that...was wondering if there was a weight limit on that thing

[mulzrule.livejournal.com]

I don't believe there is. When my mom and I step on it, it says, "Ohhhh!" *snicker* It should probably be saying,"OMG get off MEEEE!"

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

you're kidding? the thing groans? that's sad and hysterical

[mulzrule.livejournal.com]

Oh yeah. Gotta love the Nintendo guys.

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

First - thanks for my golden. *beams*

Kyo - dare to live dangerously means you might get walloped across the room.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

no problem. i have to keep Riza's first gold baby

luckily he fell off backwards

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Well, obviously. *laughs* Now you need to breed Roy to Gracia.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i think he may have done that already

[evil-little-dog.livejournal.com]

Awww.

[wildrider.livejournal.com]

Any time! :-)

I try very hard to relax -- my therapist agrees I have stress like crazy. More than stretches and massage, I need to stop sweating the small stuff. I haven't taken REAL yoga classes/sessions because of money and laziness; what I've done on my own helps some, but I have a hard time with finding my calm center (hence my "What Would Casey Do?" icon...)...

Sometimes at work I can just FEEL myself stressing. No wonder I'm more silver than copper these days...

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks

yeah those are hte reasons I don't take real yoga either.

I do live on stress (you don't go to med school if you can't hack it) but I want to live on less.

Mostly today I DID relax

[wildrider.livejournal.com]

I can understand a doctor's stress.

Me, I'm stressing out because I'm fairly clearly the only intelligent person in a unit of the mailroom... (I often think the bulk of our job could be done by trained chimps, so WHY DON'T THEY GET IT?!?!)....

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

okay that would stress me out

then again I get stressed when i grade exams and realized that half of them are utterly brain dead (or i'm the worst teacher in the world and to be honest, I know I'm not)

[wildrider.livejournal.com]

And I tell 'em the same answer to the same question, at least once a week, every week...

*in with the good air, out with the bad air...*

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

love that icon

and oh lord...

did i mention that a few weeks back a would be nurse stopped my lecture so I could explain what I mean by 'paralysis'

That I don't laugh outloud at these people is a miracle.

[wildrider.livejournal.com]

It amazes me unutterably how many words that are, to me, completely ordinary, some people just DON'T KNOW. I can't even remember now what I said that completely flabbergasted this woman in my office -- just something people I know say all the time.

That's why we hang out on the interwebs, though, I suppose...

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

that's the stuff that makes you nuts

[sillymagpie.livejournal.com]

Yep. When I have more $$$, I'd like to go back to the yoga center. I had one massage therapist ask if I had been in a car crash, I had so much tension in my back.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

not good. my therapist was appalled that my one shoulder wouldn't let go

[sillymagpie.livejournal.com]

As long as panicked dingdong doesn't hang all his weight from a single claw. I had tiirz cat, Chien, do that once when he missed a jump to my shoulder. The memory still makes me shiver, and Chien weighed only about as much a bite of cotton candy...

Girl, have you ever considered deep-tissue massage therapy? It might help with those impinged nerves. Jinkies!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

actually yeah after the last massage i was in so much nerve pain for so long (like weeks) that I though maybe once the deductible is met, I should make an appt to really have that area x-rayed and looked at.

and he did manage to claw me good tonight

[sillymagpie.livejournal.com]

I think you really need to have that area checked out. Aside from the nerve pain, compensating for that area will put your other muscles out of whack.

and he did manage to claw me good tonight

Darn cat!

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i went. they agreed with me. gave me meds

he's pure evol

[ishte.livejournal.com]

I am in fact stealing this T. Edison Quote to post on my LJ all by itself with no cut. yes. Someone I know needs to see it.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

go nuts. you might even want to spell it right and you know, hit the space key. head desk...

[chaos-by-design.livejournal.com]

See now, I like to worry about stuff to make sure bad things *don't* happen. If I don't worry about stuff, then bad shit will come and bite me on the ass. If I worry about it, then it won't happen.

I'm not helping at all, am I. :p

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

i suppose it might help if it's in 9% but worry itself won't prevent anything