cornerofmadness

I was having a doozy of a dream this morning. I was in a big city skyrise with the Dr M from the WV trip and we were LARPing some kind of monster shoot 'em up. It should have been funny but it turned out that it wasn't role play. THey were real. It ended with me being separated from the bunch and I kept going through one secret door after another but they were endless and empty men's rooms with nothing but urinals. (okay that last bit was one of my wake up and go pee dreams before you pee the bed) I woke up and the bedding was everywhere. I was sideways on the bed, muscles rigid and sore. The room stank like sweat. WTF brain? I did not need that.

Speaking of not needing it...something went down the wrong pipe today and I coughed so hard something went pop between my shoulders. Both hands went instantly numb. Pain radiated to my head and hours later I still can't lift anything with my left hand. Can we say nerve impingement. Yes I thought so. Bummmer since I need my left hand since the right is always weak and numb.

And to the contemplation. I've started chakra meditation. It's interesting. I'm just beginning of course. Was looking back in my lj for photos of Rhinelander (apparently I didn't put them where I thought i did) and I must say this self help stuff IS helping. It's not fast but compared to then I'm so much better. I can see why my psychiatrist wanted me to go away for a little rest. Yes I was dealing with a lot of really hard stuff then. THere were honest reasons to be depressed.

I have to say that

marenfic had a lot to do with really getting me started with some book suggestions and chat sessions (she's not been on a lot lately. TOo bad. I miss her). THe rest I'm doing on my own with lots of book suggestions and support from all of you so thanks.

So let me put up the stuff that spoke to me this weekend.

It was from a section on worrying. Naturally some worry is good for us, necessary even. It was more about not dwelling and overworrying (which for me is a big problem)

Did you know that 39% of the things you worry about never happen, 32 percent have already happened, 21 percent are trivial and only 9% relate to issues with legitimate cause for concern? Concentrate on that 9% and put the other 91% behind you I guess then the problem is figuring out which is the right nine. Tea Bliss - Theresa Cheung

on the art of keep trying I have succeeded in proving that those seven hundred ways will not work. WHen I have eliminated all the ways that willnot work, I will find the way that will work Thomas Edison to a reporter in regards to failing 700 times to make the electric light.

I'm keeping trying so thanks to myoriginal fiction filter for the help with Machiavelli Moon and a BIG hug and thanks to

wildrider who was only gonna read it (since we seem to be writing vampires who could probably hang out together comfortably) and has just sent me edits. whee.

Kyo has suddenly learned he can balance on the back of my task chair. ANy bets before I have claw marks down my back and a panicked dingdong nestled in the small of my back chewing his way to freedom?