My Catholic Upbringing Rears Its Ugly Head

[cornerofmadness]

I can't help it. I feel guilty. For the first time ever, I have people fighting over me for the job. I just bought my very expensive plane ticket to WV for an interview next thursday. I log into my professional email (you know the one that doesn't have a silly fan handle) to tell WV when I'll be there and as if I wasn't feeling guilty enough over a 750$ plane ticket I see a ton of welcomes from the OTHER college PLUS my class schedule.

No lie if I had seen that first, I probably wouldn't have bought the ticket. Now I feel guilty either way, damn catholic upbringing. If I ditch the one college after the schedule was already made, I'll feel so bad. If I don't get the other job I'll feel so bad for costing so much for nothing.

Yes i know this happens all the time in the business world. I still feel horrible.

Comments

[rivin142.livejournal.com]

I can understand that. Good luck, and try not to feel TOO guilty about it. You're the one that has to live with your choices. And the schedule would be applicable for your runner up, too.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

I tell myself that too and frankly there has to be a runner up for either position. I get the feeling WVV is spending money for nothing since they kept hitting on how i'm not a research ph.d

[southernbangel.livejournal.com]

I understand the guilt but look on the bright side, you have people fighting over fabulous YOU.

Good luck at the WV interview and even more good luck in making your decision. I know it will be hard but I know you'll make the right one. I'll be thinking and praying for you.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

thanks. See, I had no idea how simple it was with pretty much no one wanting me.

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

I once interviewed for this community college job--several, in fact--and got more than one offer. Finally signed the papers with one of them. Then the semester starts and I get a call from the admin assistant at another one of the schools I interviewed with asking why I hadn't shown up for the first day of class. I'm like, WTF? I felt *wretchedly bad*, even though, as I reminded myself, I didn't *sign* anything with them!

I couldn't shake the feeling I'd done something really wrong, even though it was their error assuming I'd take the job.

And I'm not even Catholic.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

That IS bad. Wow. And yeah it's not your fault and I said on the phone I'd take it BUT told them until they sent me a letter of intent to hire I was still interviewing. I haven't recieved that letter one month later so...

But I feel SOOOO guilty.

[rivin142.livejournal.com]

If you made it clear, then there's nothing to worry about. ...Unless they take the "welcome" emails as letter of intent?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

who knows. It'll be all over this time next week

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

A verbal statement is not the same thing as signing on the dotted line.

Go with whichever job is best for *you*.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

that's what I plan on doing. I know I'd like WV's campus better but then again some of the classes they want me to teach don't interest me. Well next week will be telling

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

You MUST like them if you shelled out $750.00 for a plan ticket. Yikes! WI and WV aren't that far away, are they? And THEY couldn't pay you to interview on THEIR campus?

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

yeah they are that far away, over a thousand miles.

[rahirah]

That sounds like you've covered your ass, then--seems to me something like that would be sent certified mail, so you couldn't miss it.

[natgel.livejournal.com]

A 750$ plane ticket? *boggles*

And you have to eat too, damn it. Luckily, I will never have this sort of problem, because Jews are eviiiiiiiiil. LOL.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Tell me about it. I could have flown to another country for that price.

And you said it not me :-)

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

Also, Jews don't have to eat at all. Ever.

; )

[natgel.livejournal.com]

'Course we do. It's only that little Christian children's blood isn't so high in demand on the market, you know? Like potatoes!

...I'm sorry. Too many Aryan Pride sites being posted in wtf_inc lately. It's getting to me.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

don't blame you there.

[masqthephlsphr.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I was wondering if someone had peed in your cornflakes or something. I guess they did!

*hugs you*

[natgel.livejournal.com]

So *that's* what the funny taste was! *g*

[bashipforever.livejournal.com]

Oh I don't blame you. I'd feel guilty too but when it comes right down to it you need to take the job that will make you happier.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

sadly I think the locale in one and the job in the other would make me happy. Too bad I can't fuse them...

[makd.livejournal.com]

Ahem. To quote Cher in one of my favorite movies (Moonstruck): Snap out of it!

and now: my own words: You deserve the job. You deserve the job. You deserve the job.

[cornerofmadness.livejournal.com]

Thanks. See, this is why you never give a Gemini a choice. it makes our heads explode.

The sad thing is the WV campus appeals more to me. The OH teaching curriculum is more appealing. Whine. But hey I have a job so I should NOT complain.